A SERVING OF COVID-19 WITH A
SIDE OF MENTAL ILLNESS
Voorwoord Trui Knijnenburg
Covid-19 raakt ons allemaal in meer of mindere
mate. Zie hieronder het aangrijpende verhaal van de Nederlandse studente
Celeste Wijnands, die momenteel in Londen studeert en er door de MCO 'vast
zit’. door de MCO er 'vast zit'. Zij zou heel graag nu in Kuala Lumpur
willen zijn, waar haar familie woont en wat haar thuis is en
waar ze de internationale school heeft gevolgd.
Zij heeft het zwaar, met haar geestesgesteldheid en weet desondanks een
balans te vinden. Een sterke jonge vrouw, die haar ervaringen en de lessen die
ze eruit er van leert wil delen, en zo hoopt dat anderen er mee kunnen worden
geholpen.
By Celeste Wijnands / 04/11/2020
Living through a major historical event is daunting as it is,
but surviving a government-ordered lockdown whilst dealing with mental illness?
I’ve been
diagnosed with GAD (generalised anxiety disorder), depression and
depersonalisation disorder – combine all of these with a global pandemic, and
there’s no denying the future looked bleak. To me, at least on first
impression, this seemed like a recipe for a complete mental breakdown. Meeting
up with friends on a regular basis, being able to explore the cafes London has
on offer, and trying to get my academic life in order, in the sanctuary of the
library, are all key to keeping my mental health intact during term-time.
Suddenly, all of these distractions and opportunities to keep myself busy were
banned.
Almost
overnight, the ubiquitous flurry of London life came to a surreal standstill –
and there’s no denying the anxiety burning in my chest as I realised this was
going to be my life for the foreseeable future.
However,
it’s now been a month since I saw any of my friends in person, stepped foot on
a bus or went for a drink in Spoons, and yet somehow I’m managing. To my
fellow mental illness sufferers: self-isolating does not have to mean your
mental-symptoms get worse. There are always ways to adapt to new situations and
it is crucial, now more than ever, to remember that you need to be kind to your
mind. I’ve compiled a list of the things that have been making lockdown more
bearable; they’re all seemingly minor habits, but I’ve found that incorporating
these changes into my daily routine has alleviated a lot of the stress that
comes with being confined to one’s home for the majority of the day.
Gratitude Journaling
Journaling
is something I had always wanted to start doing to aid my mental health – the
feeling of lightness and relief I experience after talking through my emotional
burdens with a parent, trusted friend, or therapist has been an immense help
through my years of dealing with mental illness. When the lockdown was
announced, I thought – what better way to get my worries off my chest than with
a journal? I take around 10-15 minutes each day to write about anything that’s
on my mind for that fleeting moment of the day, be it negative emotions or
positive observations. At the end of the journalling session, I always make
sure to jot down 3 things I am grateful for that day – for example, today it
would be:
1.
Finally getting around to writing for CUB!
2. The frozen yoghurt lolly I snacked on earlier.
3.My dad sending me a narration of my cat’s whereabouts
from home, 6,000 miles away.
2. The frozen yoghurt lolly I snacked on earlier.
Creating
Don’t worry, those posts that
you constantly see on Twitter that essentially say
‘if you haven’t got a side
hustle by the end of this pandemic, you’re a burden on
society’ get under my
skin too. What I mean by creating isn’t that you need to
become a globally
renowned artist, by the time lockdown is over, or that you
need to churn out a
new novel, like there’s no tomorrow. Personally, I’ve found
that repetitive,
seemingly small movements can really calm my OCD-like
symptoms, such as
obsessive thoughts and compulsions. One of my friends has
gotten really into
crocheting recently. When I gave it a go last week, I found that the hours
melted by without my noticing. Looking into a hobby that you can do with your
hands is especially helpful for fidgety and anxious people, like me, who suffer
from Body-Focused Repetitive Behaviours (e.g. biting your nails,
skin-picking).
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